the end

it's been eight days since i finished the pilgrimage and i'm finally starting to acclimatize to this new old life that i have.

my muscles haven't gotten used to not walking quite as easily as i have. i've woken up every morning to leg muscles that are inflexible knotted balls of meat. everyday has started with a painful process of getting them stretched out. another adjustment has been my appetite. it is now nearly non-existant compared to my extreme hunger of a week and a half ago. i don't crave anything anymore and when i do eat, i don't seem to be able to eat as much as i used to. i think my stomach has strunk.

i have noticed changes in myself but from time to time i have caught myself attempting to fall back into old routines. habit must rival gravity as one of the most constant, subtle and powerful forces in the universe. i intend to follow through on those changes. i guess i haven't yet finished what i started. maybe when i have finished it will be time to do the pilgrimage again; gyaku-uchi (counterclockwise).

that is all. it's time for you to find 40 days to find yourself. everything you are and need is right in front of your eyes, but it takes a little time away from 'things' to realize it. ;)

cheers, colin